Getting Centered

Today it was difficult to get out there and run. I’m both exhausted and lazy… but these are the rewards I must remember when I find myself wanting to take a day off.

Firstly, I feel so much more energized.  True, I was exhausted when I came home from work and almost passed out on the couch.  True, the LAST thing in the universe I wanted to do was anything physical.  But it is ALSO true that once you force your body into motion, you begin to realize that most of our day to day exhaustion is emotional or mental and not physical.  I have more energy after having run 4 miles than if I had slept an hour.  Go figure!

Secondly, I got some outdoor time.  Most office jobs (or teaching jobs, for that matter) don’t allot for time outdoors.  We spend most of our time breathing in the same stale air under artificial lighting.  I’ve even had two jobs in which I worked in offices without windows!  Can you imagine not getting a glimpse of sunlight for 8 hours of every day?!?!

After my run, I walked across the street to the beach and enjoyed this view.  I saw a little girl chasing small water birds whose species I don’t know, a flock of prehistoric looking pelicans flying across the darkening sky and a sailboat with some very lucky passengers pass by close to shore.  What could be better than that?

May 17th: Beach bummin’

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Whenever I feel conflicted, confused, hurt, sad, happy, excited, thoughtful or joyous… the perfect setting has always been and will always be the beach.  No matter what sentiment, the beach is there to either drown out your thoughts with its noisy waves or accentuate your joy with its colors and movement.

I am a beach bum to the core.  Thank you God for such a gorgeous weekend!  The sun, wind and colors could not be more beautiful.  Unfortunately, the yellow flag made me too timid to go swimming.  In just a few more weeks summer vacation will be here and I’ll have plenty of opportunities to enjoy the water 😉

May 16th: Relaxing (sort of)

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You see that face in the background?… yeah, that cute little bugger is my mom’s dog.  The dog that I had the pleasure of taking care of for her over the weekend.  Cute as he is, he is needy, demanding and an insomniac.  This wine and chocolate was consumed not only for its health purposes (you know, the antioxidants and all that), I had to consume copious amounts of Hershey kisses and drink awful table wine just to get me though a night of his panting and whining.  (sigh)

My dogs were sure enjoying her recliner, though.

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Before settling down to this much needed treat, I went for my weeknight run.  I wasn’t able to work out any time during the week except Tuesday so, by this Friday I was ready to bolt out the door once I got home.  I did it though.  I’m super committed to keeping my fitness level despite this crazy work/ school schedule!

January 27th: Making a Difference

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My Dad used to tell me when I was growing up that “Whether you think you can, or you think you can’t, you’re right.”

I became a therapist and counselor in order to help others.  I want to make a difference in people’s lives.  Like most helping professionals, however, I question whether or not I am making an impact on others.  In jobs like these, you won’t be acknowledged for your hard work very frequently.  Not many will come back and tell you what kind of an impact you’ve made or give you an update on how well they’re doing.

This morning, however, I was greeted by two little boys that I see for small group counseling. They both ran to me and gave me hugs and told me how much they missed me after a few weeks of not meeting due to standardized testing and winter break.  So much affection from such sweet little faces!… How could I not overflow with pride that maybe I am making a positive impact on their lives?

In the afternoon, I sat with a middle schooler who is in danger of not passing the 8th grade. After spending some time helping him organize his backpack and giving him a pep talk, he told me this:  “I know you’ve got a lot of kids to worry about and I’m not your only priority but, if you see me slipping with my grades again could you let me know?”  Then, pointing to the gator embroidered on his backpack, he said “My dream is to go to the University of Florida and I’m smart, I don’t want you to think I’m not.”  My response was simple: “I know you’re smart.  And the fact that you’re telling me this MAKES you my priority… I’ll over look the fact that I’m a ‘Cane and will support you wanting to be a Gator.” 😉

Whether he thinks he can or thinks he can’t, he’s right… Whether I think I can make a difference or I think I can’t, I’m right too.

January 14th: Run!

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Today I am thankful that, despite my crazy schedule and exhaustion, I made myself get out there and RUN.

I was EXHAUSTED all day… When I got up in the morning, I kinda phoned it in and didn’t put on any eye liner and my hair looked sort of like I had styled it with an egg beater.  One of my co-workers took a look at me and asked if I was sick… (Jeez! Do I look THAT bad?!…. Unfortunately, “yes”)  The last thing I wanted to do was do exercise when I got home but I knew it would be the best thing for me.  Besides, I have a race in a few weeks and need to be ready!

Before I had too much time to think about it, I got in my running clothes and headed out for my usual 3 mile loop.  Surprisingly, I was flying!  It was the fastest week-night run I’ve done in a long while and the best part was that I felt as though it had brought the life back into me!  I was more awake, alert energized and ready to go.

Best type of therapy. (And that says a lot coming from a therapist! :))